Everybody has moments when they cry and they are unable to control their feelings due to some or other reasons.
One such moment came up in front of me just few minutes ago.
I normally just cry my hearts out but I don't purposely try to hide from people that I cried, however, today it was a bit different.
I was at home and other family members were around me, I somehow had to cry to let the negative energy out of me, some mistakes I made in personal life made me feel like crying today. And I just wasn't able to control by feelings.
I thought it would be a good thing to play really loud music and then cry the heck out of me, in that way I could cry really loud sitting inside my room, and as really loud music was playing, no one could get to know that I am crying.
This was the first ever time I felt like I should purposely hide my tears from my loved ones and from anyone apart myself. I don't know the actual reason why I felt so, normally I don't hide my tears, not at least from my mother, as she takes every bit of my tears and some how manages to convert that into a nice and bright smile.
I think the reason why I went on hiding my tears and found shelter in the noise of loud music was because the reason I was crying for, I didn't want that to be known to my parents, I didn't want my parents to feel helpless and sorry for me. I didn't want anyone to know the situation for which I was crying and the past incidents that let me to that crying situation today.
But now, it feels good, I feel rejuvenated. I feel much more energetic, and because I have already cried really a lot, I feel like there's very little of those sorrows within me now, and I have thrown out all the negativity in the form of tears when I cried.
It's good and healthy to cry sometimes in life, this was one of those "sometime" for me, it let out the exasperation out and because I felt empty within myself after I cried, I could quickly let some positive energy get flowing inside my heart and feel the extreme energy flowing through my nerves, my lungs, my entire body in a matter of seconds.
One such moment came up in front of me just few minutes ago.
I normally just cry my hearts out but I don't purposely try to hide from people that I cried, however, today it was a bit different.
I was at home and other family members were around me, I somehow had to cry to let the negative energy out of me, some mistakes I made in personal life made me feel like crying today. And I just wasn't able to control by feelings.
I thought it would be a good thing to play really loud music and then cry the heck out of me, in that way I could cry really loud sitting inside my room, and as really loud music was playing, no one could get to know that I am crying.
This was the first ever time I felt like I should purposely hide my tears from my loved ones and from anyone apart myself. I don't know the actual reason why I felt so, normally I don't hide my tears, not at least from my mother, as she takes every bit of my tears and some how manages to convert that into a nice and bright smile.
I think the reason why I went on hiding my tears and found shelter in the noise of loud music was because the reason I was crying for, I didn't want that to be known to my parents, I didn't want my parents to feel helpless and sorry for me. I didn't want anyone to know the situation for which I was crying and the past incidents that let me to that crying situation today.
But now, it feels good, I feel rejuvenated. I feel much more energetic, and because I have already cried really a lot, I feel like there's very little of those sorrows within me now, and I have thrown out all the negativity in the form of tears when I cried.
It's good and healthy to cry sometimes in life, this was one of those "sometime" for me, it let out the exasperation out and because I felt empty within myself after I cried, I could quickly let some positive energy get flowing inside my heart and feel the extreme energy flowing through my nerves, my lungs, my entire body in a matter of seconds.
